I’m back

July 16, 2011 at 11:35 pm (Uncategorized) (, )

I’m back…well, kinda. It has been quite some time since I last updated my blog and I kinda miss throwing-my-feeling-into-the-public here.

Life hasn’t changed as much as I hope it would be. I had literally given up my life since a few months ago. This job has plunged me into another hell. I didn’t have a choice but to stay put. After being hit by the reality for who knows how many times, I finally know how stupid it is to have faith in people and being betrayed and disappointed over and over again.

At some point of my life, I hope that my life would be taken away by a car accident. This saves all the hassle to buy drugs. God answered “No” heralded it is not ‘the’ time yet.

What I really want at this point of my life is a new job with better pay so I can gain more financial freedom and realize plans I have for my life.

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WANTS

June 18, 2010 at 3:08 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , )

1st WANT

You know what happens when a balloon burst?

It releases a loud sound, giving alarm to the people around it.

You know why does a balloon burst?

Because it receives excessive amount of pressure or it expands due to increase in temperature.

Do you know what am I trying to say here?

  • The balloon bursts not of it’s own accord
  • The balloon is innocent

I AM THE BALLOON (just that I am yet to burst)

I rather that I am a steel ball. Instead of absorbing the pressure and temperature to myself like a balloon, I release it to the people around me. If I were a high speed steel ball, I could be like a bullet. If I were a high temperature steel ball, I could disperse the heat to whoever touches it, make them jump up and down with hot hands.

2nd WANT

Why do I keep getting orders from people around me?

Why do I have to make them happy?

Why aren’t anyone making me happy?

Why am I the one to do what a clown is supposed to do and not somebody else?

Why am I the one who have to do stuffs to satisfy others needs?

If I were to have a remote control, I would like to have one that could control people. Tell them to do as I want.

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A listener

April 19, 2010 at 2:07 pm (Uncategorized) ()

Just barely staying alive is kind of difficult.

Life is even more difficult if one’s feelings go unheard.

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