WANTS

June 18, 2010 at 3:08 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , )

1st WANT

You know what happens when a balloon burst?

It releases a loud sound, giving alarm to the people around it.

You know why does a balloon burst?

Because it receives excessive amount of pressure or it expands due to increase in temperature.

Do you know what am I trying to say here?

  • The balloon bursts not of it’s own accord
  • The balloon is innocent

I AM THE BALLOON (just that I am yet to burst)

I rather that I am a steel ball. Instead of absorbing the pressure and temperature to myself like a balloon, I release it to the people around me. If I were a high speed steel ball, I could be like a bullet. If I were a high temperature steel ball, I could disperse the heat to whoever touches it, make them jump up and down with hot hands.

2nd WANT

Why do I keep getting orders from people around me?

Why do I have to make them happy?

Why aren’t anyone making me happy?

Why am I the one to do what a clown is supposed to do and not somebody else?

Why am I the one who have to do stuffs to satisfy others needs?

If I were to have a remote control, I would like to have one that could control people. Tell them to do as I want.

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yeah, absolutely

June 10, 2010 at 10:31 am (Uncategorized) (, )

A product is only as good as the person selling it

Suze

Shopaholic Abroad by Sophie Kinsella

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Read: To Kill A Mockingbird

June 6, 2010 at 1:20 pm (Uncategorized) ()

Mockingbirds don’t do one thing but make music for us to enjoy. They don’t eat up people’s gardens, don’t nest in corncribs, they don’t do one thing but sing their hearts out for us. That’s why it’s a sin to kill a mockingbird.

It took me about a month to read this book. Reading this book was more like a leisure to me. What attracted me to buy this book was because it was an award-winning book. As far as I’m concerned, this book has been a great American literature. I might not be able to capture the messages Harper Lee intended to bring, however, I think it was a good book ūüôā

It talked about a girl, Scout, about her daily discovery of new stuffs, the society she was living in, and her family. She had a great lawyer-father, Atticus Finch who was a very fine man, full of justice and impartiality towards others. In the book, Atticus fought for an innocent Negro, who was accused of raping a teenage girl. He tried his best to fight for that black man, neglecting what others said about him (it was an era where the whites despised the blacks). I think Atticus was a great character and there’s a lot that we could learn from him. In this book, the racial inequality was so strong that although evident had proven the black man to be innocent, the jury still convicted him. Racial inequality could bring the morality of a society going down the drain.

There was a reclusive character in the book, called Arthur Radley, nicknamed Boo by Scout, her brother Jem and her summertime-friend, Dill. They thought he was rather an odd person, never came out from his house, and had tried many times to get him out of his house. In the book, Boo had showed his fondness towards the kids by putting some gifts in the hole of a trunk of a tree several of times. Towards the end of the story, when a guy wanted to hurt Scout and Jem, Boo came to their rescue and managed to save their life. Lee was telling us that we should never judge a person simply because of what he/she appears to be.

Well, I could only capture a small part of what Lee intended to portray in this book. I think everyone should give this book a read. It was an award-winning book, I am sure other readers could catch/learn something that I couldn’t see in this book.

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When life’s getting nowhere

June 4, 2010 at 3:25 pm (Uncategorized) (, , )

Life has been a roller coaster ride so far. Met different kind of people since I started working. Life has really taught me a great lesson, especially when I met those ridiculous person who were so full of themselves.

I feel the older I get, the lonelier I am. Everyone started from the same point, growing through experiencing stuffs. Whatever decision made at a turning point might affect one’s future greatly. Being in the position where I always torn being options, not knowing which path could lead me to what kind of future…fuh…I thought I encountered that countless of times.

When I was doing my application to enroll in local uni, I thought life was just about making choices, following what my heart tells me to do. I guess I wasn’t matured enough and I saw the world as a safe place. Silly as I was, I was yet to know the world and the people living on it.

I started to know true faces of people when I studied in uni. In uni, I met different kind of people. I thought I had enough, but they were just a small group of different people that I came across when I was a student. Stepping into working life, I met alot more different kind of people. People who like to boss some other people around, people who would do whatever it takes to achieve something, people who said stuff with hidden meaning, people who don’t give a damn about you, people who talk cock about how much they earn, people who comment about whatever you do, people with two faces, people who treat you sincerely. There are a lot more to learn. Sometimes, when dealing with these people, it made me feel tired, wondering why am I doing what I am doing.

When I was a student, I wanted to work so much. I thought of earning, spending my own money, and be happy. When I started to work, I wanted to be a student pulak. I think this is what people called ‘fan jin’. Almost 1 year into working life, I am already so exhausted. Exhausted for having to see the people I don’t wanna deal with, exhausted for having to bear greater responsibilities, exhausted for having to suffer my unhappy feeling and don’t know who could I turn to, exhausted for I couldn’t find a person who can understand me, exhausted for all the emotion uproar, exhausted for having to anticipate how my future gonna look like. Sometimes being in my status quo, doing what I am supposed or expected to do just isn’t enough. Why couldn’t life be perfect? Because we are not perfect, the earth itself isn’t perfect.

Sometimes I wonder why does God create human? Why did He create us with unexpected brain capacity? It makes human so unlimited, but at the same time so limited. We can achieve great things in life with some extraordinary ideas, like stepping on the surface of the moon. Yet, we can be so limited, not be able to decide most of the things that we came across, like choosing who we like to deal with, choosing when we are going to die.

Even your best friend, a selfish person, can be selfish to you, treat you like treating any other people. Having people to appreciate yourself, your existence, what you do, I think you can’t hope too much. I think I’ll be happier hoping nothing in return when I give to others. I think I’ll be even happier when I develop no feeling towards things, people and stuff.

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