WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

July 21, 2009 at 7:11 am (Uncategorized) ()

I mentioned previously that I was doing research for a company, immediately upon my graduation. During this period, I received a few offers from other companies but I either rejected/delayed their offers because I think it’s only professional to complete my research before I leave. So, I did my best for this research BUT in the end, they didn’t even PAY ME MY SALARY. WHAT THE FUCK!!!

If I knew this would happen, I would have left half way and started working somewhere else. I only put up with them because my prof told me to continue and partly because of professionalism. IN THE END, I GOT NOTHING. DAMN IT!!!

The COO said: Sam macam tak de perkembangan la, gaji dia susah sikit. What the fuck. SHIT! If he care enough to follow my so-called perkembangan, I already did a lot in this research. I put in all my effort. My prof knew that and he was happy with what I did. The COO also said women aren’t flexible and can’t handle important stuff and very difficult to work with. What the fuck. He was talking about his unwillingness to pay me and then discriminate all the women in the world. Fuck up your own life. Your mother is a human with a penis is it???? You came out from a vagina too, ok. He also indirectly insult my prof. I hope he will pay for his arrogance and disrespectful for other gender.

He was late for 3 days during the first month pay. I only got my first pay because I wrote letter to appeal for advance salary, and what the fuck?! I need to write to get advance salary while I was supposed to those damn salary on time. After I got my first pay, the COO assured me that I will get the second month pay on 15th. And now, it’s already 21st. What the fuck! I demanded for my salary twice but I was ignored and still not getting my salary. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!

Ok, now I really am not getting my salary. Anyone can help me or give me some advice? Do I need a lawyer or what? Shit, I really don’t know what I can do. I AM FUMING!!! AND OH YEAH, FUCK UP YOUR OWN LIFE DUDE 😀

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Frustration

July 11, 2009 at 1:46 am (Uncategorized) ()

Life is not easy. There’s so much decision to be made in this life. Seriously, I think I explore another 2% of my stewpid brain coz I think so much recently. I think even more than the number of times I used my brain to think in the past 23 years. Or did I kill more brain cells by thinking unnecessarily so much?

If this is the so-called transition phase that everyone has to endure, I would say this is a super tough one for me. Maybe because I’m a hesitant, I tend to suffer from my brain-consuming process.

Sometimes, when I thought I have made the decision, I won’t think about ‘what if’ anymore. I thought nothing can make me doubt whether I’ve chose the best out of all the cards I possess in hands. I’m not strong and brave to stand firm on my decision. Every little single thing that come into my way, I tend to think that God is showing me that I should reconsider. Hmm…I don’t know.

Why do I always wanna put myself to suffer? Put myself in dilemma? I’m not a ‘kin bou hang bou’ person. I like to plan, plan what will happen next, plan how my future would lead me. But too much planning can be bad sometimes, or even worse, damaging.

Just a moment ago, I suddenly remembered what I intended to do for my life. I actually planned the life I wanna live some time ago, maybe a few years back. Like I always say, the 4-years in uni have demotivated me. I lost myself, and found a new miserable-self. I thought life isn’t going anywhere and I chose to stay in comfort zone aka suicidal zone. I forgot how to fight for something I want. Something just triggered me and I asked myself, “SAM! What are you doing?!” Because of this suicidal mindset, I screwed-up 2 very important interviews. DAMN!!!! I hate myself for that. I spoilt my own future.

I feel very discouraged. I hope I can have better chances and make it up myself for my own future.

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Opportunities

July 8, 2009 at 11:01 am (Uncategorized) ()

Opportunities may come and go. Once it’s gone, you may never get it ever again. How your future leads you depends on how smart you grab the opportunities you get. Some may be afraid to decide which opportunity to take. Some may be greedy and try to grab as much opportunities as possible.

That’s what’s happening to me now. Too many opportunities. Too many decisions to make. The worst thing of all, I don’t know what I want.

I feel pathetic for hesitating so much. I’m stuck in my own dilemma.

I wanted to decide and never turn back again but I’m scared I’ll regret and lose better opportunities. I wanna follow my heart but…sigh

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Belated Birthday lunch with sis

July 7, 2009 at 3:39 pm (Uncategorized) (, , , )

Sometime ago, my sister treated me lunch at Fong Lye, The Gardens, as a celebration for my 23rd birthday. We intended to go sushi zanmai but there was a long queue and we decided to go Fong Lye instead. Anyways, what you do doesn’t matter that much as long as you do it with the person you love 🙂

We kinda had a feast la…haha

#1 our food!

#1 our food!

I ordered a set, something like pan mee style. My sis ordered her all-time favourite, mee suah and side orders, salted chicked and spring roll. Thumbs-up for the salted chicken 😀 You guys out there should give it a try, better than salted chicken in Little Taiwanese.

We saw Dylan, a tv host from 8tv in Fong Lye. He’s not that tall, at all. hehe^^

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Kiss-A Kiss-A Kiss-A-Ten

July 4, 2009 at 3:01 am (Uncategorized) (, , , , )

Last Thursday, May, Daphne, Yuli and me had farewell makan with Yoke Yeng as she’s going to KT for clinical training for as long as 3 yrs *roll eyes-can u believe it*

We went makan at a japanese restaurant in Jaya 1 called Kissaten. You can find varieties of pasta, pizza, burger and japanese foods on their menu. It’s like a japanese-western restaurant, we only call it japanese restaurant coz of the japanese words we saw in the menu. lol

#1 kissaten @ jaya 1

#1 kissaten @ jaya 1

#2 they have a nice wallpaper

#2 they have a nice wallpaper

#3 nice restaurant, the dim light was just right ;)

#3 nice restaurant, the dim light was just right 😉

then we cam-whored a bit 😀

#4 may-yuli-yoke yeng-daphne

#4 may-yuli-yoke yeng-daphne

#5 may-yokeyeng-me-daphne

#5 may-yokeyeng-me-daphne

then our foods came

#6 yoke yeng & yuli ordered mushroom tamago spagetti

#6 yoke yeng & yuli ordered mushroom tamago spagetti

#7 daphne ordered seafood spagetti

#7 daphne ordered seafood spagetti

#8 may's order - i forgotten the name...

#8 may's order - i forgotten the name...

#9 my order, tonkatsu set

#9 my order, tonkatsu set

#10 we ordered this pizza....mushroom tamago pizza with seaweed. rate 5/5!!!

#10 we ordered this pizza....mushroom tamago pizza with seaweed. rate 5/5!!!

Remember that I mentioned the wallpaper was nice? After makan, we cam-whored kao kao with the wallpaper.

#11 the ultimate butt pose

#11 the ultimate butt pose

#12

#12

#13 yoke yeng with fungus

#13 yoke yeng with fungus

#14 may with bitter gourd

#14 may with bitter gourd

#15 daphne with an unidentified vege

#15 daphne with an unidentified vege

#16 yu li and ....

#16 yu li and ....

#17 me kisssing capsicum

#17 me kisssing capsicum

#18 we kissed kissaten before we left...i'll be back for the nice foods

#18 we kissed kissaten before we left...i'll be back for the nice foods

After that we went to Simply Fusion for dessert. And they brought me for a virgin tour to Cold Storage.

#19 wah wah wah, all sorts of cheese

#19 wah wah wah, all sorts of cheese

#20 I said after u eat this, u'll become 50 yrs old and they decided that I have enough for the virgin tour :(

#20 I said after u eat this, u'll become 50 yrs old and they decided that I had enough for the virgin tour 😦

#21 decoration outside Jaya 1

#21 decoration outside Jaya 1

After that we balik rumah. Was glad that I joined them for makan 😀

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